A Shirt I Never Wore

by pj johnson

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released July 7, 2017

Recorded in January 2017 at Big Sister Studios, Cairns.
Recorded & Mixed by Mark Myers.
Tracks 1,2,4,5 Mastered by Mikey Young.
Track 3 Mastered by William Bowden.
Graphic design/liner design/photography by Dale Chynoweth.

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Track Name: A Shirt I Never Wore
Stuck outside,
freezing
Shivering alone
A garage in the suburbs
Is this somebody's home?
The band's from Brooklyn, NY
Devoted fans abound
I've just discovered Rumours
That you're still hanging around

Fi's a college kid
School of Medicine
Been to Asia, Europe
Two years in Berlin
I sip silently and stare off into the air
Can't sell a half-lived life
I've got no purchase here

But you do it carelessly
You do it with such ease
Makes me wonder sometimes
What else is up your sleeve

They're talking politics
And books that don't exist
They're talking all the time I've got no room to stop and think

And so I wonder what the fuck was it that I just said
I guess I'll try to realise the nothing in my head
What was the reason I dragged myself to this affair?
They tell me dissonance attests the lives that we all share
Could I impress you with my cigarettes and mid-range wine?
Cut my hair and tuck my shirt so we can realign
I'll drink and tell myself that things are good and people care
I lose a twenty and collect a shirt I'll never wear

But you do it carelessly
You do it with such ease
Makes me wonder sometimes
What else is up your sleeve

(Another axe to grind
Another cross to bear
Another nightmare to indulge and to ensnare
Do you hear my white boy blues?
Do they encapsulate you?
Just hope that I escape alive before I fall in two
Please tell me things are good, they're good and people care
Now tell me that I'm born to fit a shirt I'll never wear)
Track Name: Single Mother
Finish after midnight
Put your seatbelt on
Cradles your body in the dark
You're out on the highway
On a straight line headed home
Backwards and forwards, an arc

Your eyelids grow heavy
And your feet, they hurt like hell
You need to get to bed
The city's so quiet
Lights bathe the road in gold
The glare hurts your head

Headlights on the wall now
Feels good to be inside
TV's still on now
Sound breaks and then subsides
She's in your arms
And you take her to beddy-byes
You have your cigarette and watch the sun rise
Track Name: Ode To Baird
When I'm 20 years older maybe I'll look back and laugh
Right now I'm just dwelling
On the things I don't have
Shit I could wake up bald and ageing
I could wake up dead
Could've wasted the time that was fruitlessly mine
Just living alone in my head

Feels like the lockouts in Sydney
Have ruined my weekend again
And I'm trying so hard to sneak back into bars
At least trying to find some friends
And the scorn with which you have swiftly adorned
Feels like a tequila too far
When lovers get hurtin' you guess it's my burden
That's just the way things are

We're all caught in some kind of cycle
Just waiting to bleed
To pay forward the harm that we've locked in our hearts
Now I'm the one planting the seeds
Damn I know I'm a terrible lover
Despicable friend
Oh, half-cheating and lying and loving and leaving
And I knew I was sub-par in bed

Feels like the lockouts in Sydney
Have ruined my weekend again
And I'm trying so hard to sneak back into bars
At least trying to find some friends
And I'm watching the lovers pine sadly for others
While I covet a stranger's kebab
No one's replyin', my phone's slowly dyin'
Just tryin' to call down a cab

I know that men can be cowards, easy to run
I swear I had faith that I wore a new face
But I'm just another cruel one
We're tired and lonely companions, mired in tears
Resentment still climbs after love slowly dies
Be it hours, or days, or years

Feels like the lockouts in Sydney
Are a nightmare I cannot escape
To be stuck in between bogan fever-dreams
Is a fitting and sickening fate
I'll watch the sun rise on the sands of Bondi
While teenagers set fire to bins
Think I'll stay lonesome, sit here on my own some
And try to repent for my sins
Track Name: Sirens
I know you're conscious
I know you are awake
But I know better than to simply raise the stakes
The ugly side
Of careless tides
Creep forward

And I wade resentful in the pockets of our cheer
Dirty water gets clearer with the years
My arms, they tire
Sirens conspire
They call forth

So hold your breath and dive with me
For all my life it's you I seek
We bleed apart
We bleed as fools
But we could be so beautiful

I swam into the gloom to eat up all the fear
We shook and trembled in the oceans of our tears
And air became
A cheap escape
And we sank

Until the morning, the water rules the shore
Blind unconscious forces, raging still and war
And so I sing
A reckoning
To you now

Hold your breath and count to ten
Keep the words to you I send
We bleed apart
We bleed as fools
But we could be so beautiful

Hold your breath and dive with me
For all my life it's you I seek
We bleed apart
we bleed as fools
But we could be so beautiful